For these years in rvnpBANGBANGSQUAD♥ i felt that i learnt alot. Be it the hard skills or the soft skills, a big thank you to all who have taught me, my SQUADMATES and my NCOS.

Change, something unavoidable, and a continuos cycle. Everyone experience that regardless of who you are and where you belong too. Change in attitude, change in behaviour, even the most inevitable part of life, growing up is a change.

Squadmates changed me. A healthy dose of encouragement from you all is probably the reason that kept me going. I remembered myself wanting to give up, i remembered myself losing the passion in NPCC. I used to hate NPCC, I used to dread going to acts, i used to think that going fot CCA is an absolute waste of time. So, i understood. I understood how it felt like to be doing something that i dislike that much.

There is one thing that cannot be changed -- history. Time will never rewind back to the times where we were still sec ones, time will never go back to the times where we still had a choice. No we don't. The chance to start all over again is never there, things will never be the way, it used to be. From sec1s, to sec2s and the fast-paced sec3life and to us being the current NCOs. Be it we are prepared or not, i feel that that is something WE have to face, something we cannot run away from. I have to admit that we are not well-prepared for all these, at least i feel that I am not.

First act in NP as a NCO, after ROD. I felt a sudden gush of happiness in me as i stepped into the NPCC room. It is the very first time i stepped into the NPCC room without having to ask for permission. M'ams were there to guide us along. I realised from that, it is not easy being an NCO. Having tip-top conditions for the attire, the preparation for lessons before teaching the cadets, planning of acts with the welfare and benefits that act will bring to the cadets in mind. All these were not easy, even just as a committee member and a sec1 DI who have not taken any squad, its hard. Sorry to all of my past NCOs when i took all of these, your planned lessons and acts you took us, for granted. I when to see my squadmates take the sec2s and sec3s. Grown-up Cadet, now as a cadet leader, squadmates you people really had the aura and the sense of "WOW" within all for you. I aim and strive to be like you people, who are able to carry out your duties as NCOS in charge of the squad. I heard the Sec1o9 squad's ROD speech for their NCOs, i told myself i want to be like our NCOs, to be able to turn the dislike towards NPCC in the new cadets,who had just joined the RVNP family, into the drive and passion for NPCC. For this, i feared. I am afraid i will not be able to take the squad, i am afraid that i will ruin all the image of NPCC and cause my cadets to hate NPCC. I am afraid that i will not be able to build a strong foundation in my cadets and causing the next batch of NCOs to suffer for what i have done. My squadmates asked me why, i wanted to give up, something that i have chosen for myself, a sec1 squad DI. I got what i wanted, why do i want to give it all up now? They talked me out of it at least, they gave me a feeling that they believe i can do it. thanks, it is appreciated and i really hope all will go well for you people as well! JIAYOUS all squadmates and together, we shall put RV NPCC onto greater heights!

"The path to our destination is not always a straight one. We go down the wrong road, we get lost, we turn back. Maybe it doesn't matter which road we embark on. Maybe what matters is that we embark."
--Barbara Hall, Northern Exposure, Rosebud, 1993

Throughout this year and the next half of year in 2010, there is still a chance to improve, there is still chance to be with squadmates, there is still one last chance.