I am gonna rant everything here and thats it. As many people will know, i am very pissed off with 2 suckers and actually aheming pissed off with ONE OF THEM.

I wouldnt make any unjust statements and it will indeed be an accusation with proof.
http://www.india-shopping.net/indian-musicalinstruments/Indian-musical-Instruments.htm thats where chuanxun got ALL his information. I mean i told him to do this: "hey can you research on the backgroud of musical instruments of India and national flower." WOW great job. I am not a idiot can? I dont need to know how the instruments look like nor do i need to describe the instrument. WAKE UP. ITS GPP, there is a word limit and each and every word is precious enough to be wasted on your stupid trash. Look at the webpage another WOW! indian-shopping.net. great job sucker. I mean like what the hell? WHICH SANE ONE will not know that this GPP does not need description but ideas?? MORON. then the PengChuen. I asked him to send me the info and guess what i received it at 11.30 and it was crap. totally lifting no analysis of info no nothing. Then i say okay nvm help me contact that chuan xun. "i think he sleep le" thats all i got. CHUANXUN is uncontactable. nvm then u help me edit after i finish can? he agreed. When i got it back, NOTHING was changed NOTHING. Dont tell me that the GPP i've done is so flawless T.T did you even put in any effort? I dont care if you are talking to your crush or something if you cant do it then dont, tell me you cant, i dont need sharmine to come apologising to me telling me that you were msning with her and she was sorry about it. DAMN YOU, its not even her fault and she's apologising for your sake? YOU ARE WORTH THAT? JOKE. 2 brainless suckers.

Next up, on thurs day lesson of CID, i was like: "Great this bullshit you have done, what kind of attitude is that?"
Pc- diam liao. he didnt say anything.
CX- "WHAT? I GOT DO WHAT!"
me: then why are u so uncontactable?
CX: my phone spoil what what you want me to do?
me: at least show some effort and not go missing at 9 plus right?
CX:what i got send you info what then u sms stil say thank you.
me: i received thats why i said thanks but when i saw the info where are you?
CX: but you say okay liao what so i.
me and taikee said smth like : so u "research" then can dont care liao is it?
CX- ROLL EYES.

i will have you know that i didnt sleep at all on thurs and went to school. HELLO i got NPAP training. WHATS YOUR PROB LA. You cannot dont sleep but i can is it? YOUR GPA OR MY GPA? oh well suckerT.T you are too stupid to know what i am talking about. taikee told me to tell teacher, after much persuasion to do so, i agreed and we did. the teacher went to talk to them and the they come back. roll eyes again. HE ROLLED AGAIN. OMG THAT AHEM. the teacher said: hope you all try to work together. i nodded. what else could i have done?

"so now we need to change you GPP so what you all suggest and want to do?"
CX- turned and look at the DAMN YEAR BOOK AND IGNORED.
taikee- wah piang you never do anything still like that.
CX- have lor i got do.
me: yeah funny
CX: you dont give us anything to do then keep saying we never do.

OMG LA HE GIVE ME THAT DAMN ATTITUDE AND BULLSHIT WORK HE STILL EXPECT WHAT. I was freakingg pissed off by then liao. FINE, i shall do it on my own.

The next day. "eh boonkee i think xinyi and taikee very angry with me leh" CX told boonkee.
Boonkee: of course la who ask you dont do GPP.
CX: what, i got do lor is XINYI that never do anything still say me.

-if anyone wanna know how i know, boonkee told us-

I WAS LIKE OMFG? then actually when taikee knew it she was pissed off also. then saw PC. taikee wanted to like tell him whats wrong and give him another chance before we wrote letter. HE lost his chance by lying to us that he was late for class where sharmine later told us that their recess is ending 20 mins later. great job boy, you lost your chance. i was freaking pissed off and thus me and taikee told boonkee to help us write a letter cause she has nice handwriting and was seriously all the truth cause i cant stand being in their group, this time, its final. 你做的最错的是冤枉我，我这辈子最讨厌的最是被冤枉。

seriously, CHUANXUN, you can ask taikee how many times i have pleaded her to not tell teacher that YOU TWO ASSHOLES didnt do anything. How many times i told her this concerned your GPAs, how many times i have told you all? how many times have i repeated that darn instruction of mine to lead to you not understanding what you are supposed to do?

Girl, you are plain stupid, You shouldnt have helped them, you shouldnt have. 你这么努力的帮助他们，得到的是他在你后面捅的那一刀。值得吗？当然不。You are plain stupid to actually ONCE THOUGHT that he have hope. He's hopeless, right from the beginning do you understand?

i do now.

ps. believe it or not its all the truth if you choose to believe some freaks from probably a planet further than pluto then do it T.T ( this is my first time posting "f" in my blog so you see how pissed i was?)

Here i am posting about NPAPo9. come to think about it i have changed. The pride of being PART OF the GOLD UNIT. That pride, i hope to sustain through my remianing days in NPCC.

When we were sec2s i remember the day where we as cadets went to witness this event. I posted about it after i went home and that was what i wrote:

that was the only sentence i wrote but i remembered this promise i made to myself : "i must wear that number one uniform! i must."

I did of course in the end and you would have seen me loooking very awkward in it. (thats besides the point) I am proud but this time a totally different feeling-- I AM PART OF THE PARADE.

i remembered the day of selection, i was dying from a terrible virus that got onto me, i was indeed dying. I didnt care about that so much though, the number one uniform, once its gone its gone forever. I was unwilling to give up and btw thanks squadmates for encouraging me. yeah our hard work paid off we all got in. We trained doubly hard, worst of all i was the worst in drill (someone had to be the last and in this case it was me). Every practise drained us, all of us.

Soon i got tired. i was tired about drilling and drilling i was tired about all the things i had to do i was tired of skipping lessons i was tired of tired. I am sure a few people knows it i wanted to give up. ENDURANCE. It had been pushing my limits especially the day before. Demoralised time after time. I had seriously difficulty trying to flick up the rifle and get a grip on it cause the gloves were too slippery even to the day before the parade. UPSET perhaps, disappointment. I was afraid of that. The day of parade, i was determined to give it my all. I did it. Thats all i need to know-- i tried my best. "Good Job!" thats all i need to hear. Its enough, its all worth it. Squadmates thanks for your support.