back to school

okay thanks to all that bought me presents. you all really din have to:D but i still LOVE THEM. anw THANKS TO:
♠OONHIM AND TAIKEE for the cake and card:D
♠CHEAHJING AND HILDA for the BIG LOLLIPOP:DD
♠GLADYS AND JINGQI for the hairband and PIG badge:DDD
♠EVA for the yellow carebear:DDDD

(i will post the pics of the CUTE things other time:DD)

see that little thing...

OKAYOKAY i posting about the HAMSTER tadadada! CLASS PET:DD. *yikes* okay i think i am the only one against that cute little creature. thats cause i sensitive to it. awwww. lalala. people are gonna hate me for this : i dun wan that hamster. LOLs. okay i dun mind having it as a class pet as long as people stop being so DAMN incosiderate. ahems..
anyway, i had a DADDY now. OMGOMG. LAOGONG u now have father-in-law:D *hurray*
YAYS! PASSED my CHEM. okay today's MOST enjoyable lesson, MALAY. OMG la i today damn grouchy( ps if i pissed anyone off). THANKS KIANLIN u made my DAY with your lameness. woots. okay the thing is i think i SCREWED my speech again. no more chance. sobs. thats al folks:D tomorrow anoter chapter of my life.

♥SMILEyourHEARTsout

Happiness is learning to whistle,catching a firefly and setting it free...

all went well. i went anchor point with oon him they all. THEN went to oon him's HOUSE. =X started on maths revision worksheet and COMPLETED it:D *SMILES* decided that we would revise again TOMORROW. its the final lap and i will try my best. If my hardwork doesnt pay off this VERY time. i am giving up. JIAYOUS for EOYS.

anw i decided to be nice now. i feel guilty for all i have done and i am sorry. please to all FORGIVE me. give me time i will change. trust me this last time wont you?

lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NCO BERNICE:DD

♥iamnotgonnabeabitch

a cruel reflection of reality

it felt just like me being deceived. Having suspicions on peoples' intentions and so on. I have been worrying too much lately. I have been reflecting all this time. i have been living life like a FOOL> i worry about the slightest things and i have been on these freaking thoughts since the beginning of june. WHATS WRONG WITH ME? i felt like dying alrd and i felt worse about the backstabbing in MY LIFE. Its too complicated and i dint wanna think about it. but i cant help it. I have no idea but seriously it felt like i am living life worse then hell. TORTURED by these thoughts were bad enough and i had this weird feeling of beng alone. all alone. i am afraid of the dark but there is no beam of light. the smile is no longer real anymore. it is no longer there. at this very min i am writing this, its with every bit of disappointment i have towards myself. Suicidal thoughts were often present. But i dun have the courage. at least i still feel a need to return all that was given to me. at least i still think that there are people around me that cared for me. thats what i think but i dun feel it. i have became more insensitive or did i give up already? its just 13 years of my life. not even 14. isnt it a pity to give up now? Shouldnt i just grasp on to the last ray of hope and carry on with my journey in the dark house? confused. puzzled. by what is happening to me. by all the things around me.


&iwastedmylifeaway

TGIF :DDD

oooooh. today's PT:D quite fun. Our acts are becoming funner and funner:DD . i dun dread it as much now at least. I LOVE THE PASS BALL WHILE RUNNING GAME:D its fun though keep drop but still i enjoy it:D then attempted DRAGON PUMPING. though din succeed but arms still ache. SORRY PEEPS=x i too weak. LOLS. Then played captains' ball for recrea. i felt like a loser. i HATE ball games cause i suck at it.



anw. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELICIA♥!




♥SMILE:DDD

sudden passion for quotes

a happy day:DDDD so smile:DD hmmm. i had many smiles in my blog WOOTS. anyway, There's smth lacking in my blog but i dunno what. =X

okay la just blogging for the sake of blogging. KEEP THE TAGS GOING PEOPLE:DD they make my day^__^

♥itsahappyday:D

okay 1st i must thank OONHIM for helping me in updating. LOLs.
~THANK YOUUUUUUUU~


hmmmm today's TUESDAY:D. CCA!! before act saw VERON with 2 balloons =.= I am jealous! *hints* okay todays' act was quite okay for me^__^ had pt as forfeit. WE LOVED IT though. CC,CD, PT and DRILL haha xD nice act. how i hoped its always like that..

Then now talk about my new skin:DD i have grown tired of my previous blog skins and thus wanting to change. Hope you people out there like my blogskin. Though not very done up yet but should be okay^^ i will improve on it and leave tags to COMMENT:D
negative OR positive both acceptable (i prefer positive ones though xD)


LEAVE TAGS people. my board is DEAD. *sobs*

Hello world!
Ahaaa, I'm posting for Xinyi right now so guess who I am :D
-pokes around-
Anyway I've decided that this blog is getting rather dead so I'm doing her a favor (Xinyi say 'thankyou'!)

She's at my house right now reading the chinese version of Totochan. Ha. & I have to do a freaking CID shit. ):
Screw CID cos it sucks.

Omg there's no PT for act tml again! Walau it's been almost a month since we had pt already k.
Z that's soooo long. & we were almost 100% sure that tmr's act will be PT. Oh yaay, I'm soooo excited for CC & CD tml. -.-Heng it's not drill though.
But I have a really bad feeling that we're never gonna get our PT. Sheesh. I've been counting on this PT to get rid of the fats I've been accumulating.
Hmm maybe we can request our NCOs to let us have PT for this Friday's act. :/ It's been too long. :B

Ah well I guess it's pretty obvious that I'm Oonhim right now uh.
:D With all the complaints and stuff. Hee.

Yep, once again, I've invited her to invade my house so I'm invading her blog now.
:) She's tempting me with chips (groan) See what I mean when I need to jianfei? Arghh. Plus I ate 2 hotdogs and a drink @ ikea just now for lunch. Erps.
HAHA I managed to resist the temptation of eating the caramel ice cream HEEE.

K I think I'm wasting space here, so byebye.
I'd better get my CID done now ._.

♥Oonhim :D

Labels: oonhim :D

today. arghs dragged myself outtta bed.
wash up and prepare go school.
WOOTS. waited at the bus stop.
missed two buses on purpose!
(oonhim u gotta thank me for that)
then oonhim got on bus she called me.
then at my stop two 963 came.
i took the first one.DAMN IT.
so suay in the end still different busT.T
waste my time.
but she waited for me at the bus stop.
miraculously she reached first..
WE SAW SQUADMATES.
yay! we went for drill practise.
okay i realised i am gonna flung for WOC>.<
i totally suck at it.
which leg the command end.
when to execute command.
.zzz. i hope i pass though.
hmmmmm. suddenly wanted to be squad ic.
i noe its impossible.. *SOBS*
then we were sort of tired..
me, oonhim, wenting, eelin and felicia went VIVO.
ate LUNCH.
ba chor mee.
for them mee pok. for me guo tiao.
HAHA. there is no need to say.
then we went to auditorium MAKAN.
me and wenting dun eat chilli de.
YAY! mine is with ketchup.
but poor wen ting..
i think the auntie forget and gave her the chilli.
she say she dun care if she gets sausage lips.
SHE MUST FNISH IT.
then she eat until super xin ku..
we got her unglam pics.haha.
havng loads of fun taking her pic.
have a nice view of what she's doing ~!

ENJOY~!

SHE GOT TWO BOWLS haha.


open mouth BIG BIG


CLOSE UP^^


the only one she smiled~!


FINISHNG FINISHING!!

okay now for compare and contrast

similar hor??
SPOT THE SIMILARITIES~!
oonhim said they look similar.
in some way or another. HAHA.
thats all FOLKS.

counting down:
this sept.
1ST VERON's.
2ND FELICIA's
3RD MINE. YAY!

nopes no vulgarities in my blog.
i shant scold. its crude *blehs*
i am damn pissed okay?
nothing is going smoothly for me.
i hate this .
i hate THESE.
its hurting me.
okay. its selfish to do that IDIOT.
nevermind i shant vent my anger in poor little blog

today went library revise~! WOOTS. thats meeeee.
then went westmall.
PeiQin called me ask me go meet her.
I went.
SAW HER AND SONGKEN.
:/ OMIGOSH. can u believe it??
THEY *****!!
new c**ple !!
lalala. i noe i am gonna get trashed by this.
LOLS. hope they LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER(so sweeeeet)
okay enough of them.

i am freaking pissed again.
i cant control liao.
MUST VENT OUT or i may just kill myself.


"Time might or might not heal the wounds. I leave it to fate, as i have said it is really funny. Suddenly so close suddenly so far. If u remembered what is the meaning of this, then so be it, But for now, its better to say bye. So bye!"
okay thats what u said. THANKS yea?

enough is enough.
i had enough already.
enough of this sorry-s.
its not gong to work out that way.
at least not the way u wanted.
its not the first time.
and i really hoped it would be the last.
isit my fault or isit yours??
is being friends so difficult?
u rather be alone..
TELL YOU U NEVER WAS.
"NO MAN IS AN ISLAND"
so stop being so selfish.
u are hurting the people around u.
when u change your mindset u will be happier.
trust me u will be.

thanks to all who cheered me up.
dun worry i am okay now.
i must be strong.
i am ME.
i will not give up.
i gained back my FIGHTING SPIRIT.
its all not over yet.
worlds' doomsday .

buckets of thanks to all.